As I walked into my living room towards my piano yesterday, I realized that there stood the item that I had slaved over for the greater part of my life. I thought to myself, "Wow... This collection of wood and metal that (supposedly) produces beautiful music essentially took away my adolescence."
When I was 7 and all the other kids played outside during dinnertime, why did I have to reject? "Sorry, I have piano." I still remember literally looking outside my window, seeing them play on the little strip of lawn belonging to them that bordered our lawn.
When I was 11 and invited to hang out with one of my neighbours, what did I say? "Sorry, I have to go practice piano."
When I was 16 and desperately stressed with IB, what did I still have to do instead of sleeping and finishing homework? "Brb, piano."
When I was 17 and wanted to actually leave my house during winter break, why couldn't I? "I have to piano."
I then contemplated the benefits. I'm sure they're embedded in there somewhere, but they're far and few between. Maybe I'll find them someday
On a side note, the week's been somewhat interesting. Lots of piano, not a lot of sleep (I calculated that I slept a grand total of 19 hours from Monday to Friday, which is the same amount some people get over the two days of the weekend), an okay amount of thought. Monday and Wednesday were definitely the... pinnacles of that situation. I wish I had more time to spare so that I could write the story, but it'll have to wait for now in favour of studying math and chem. I know that I have to write it out because it's the only thing that will really bring me closure and put a conclusion to this whole thing, but will I really be able to muster the willpower to dig that far deep?
Perhaps it's all about your perspective.
ReplyDeleteYou know, Andy, I wrote nearly the exact OPPOSITE thing for one of my university applications. I wrote how much I regretted not having an instrument to call mine, not having a musical skill to slave over yet be proud of.
I guess it's an experience that either adds to or takes away from your life. Priorities change, perhaps? For sure, it influences us.
So for now, be proud that all your hard work has led you to accomplish something that many other people envy and even dream of. :) And good luck tonight.